First, I would like to apologize to everyone I've hurt this summer. I've been thoroughly informed of (and have thoroughly regretted) things I've said or done. Don't you hate it when you turn into exactly what you don't want to be, but don't even notice? Let me tell you, it sucks (hindsight is 20/20). I love you all and I've realized things I should've figured out a long time ago (on my own or with the help of another...). For example, I value my friendships too much to let camp get in the way (I've been waiting and waiting for the end of this week when I could come home. I didn't want to go back after Creation). I suppose in ways camp was an answer to a prayer or two, but now that the end has come, I have realized that it may have only been an answer to prayer so that God could say to me "see what you wanted? sucks doesn't it?". Yes, it does. It seems that happens each summer from camp. Some big prayer is answered, but only so God can say "there you go. Now come my way." A wise man once told me "you can be who you want to be at camp, because nobody really Knows you. But here, you're Bruce." I'm Bruce, not camp. If I'm going full-time camp, I need to put Bruce in camp, not put camp in Bruce.
Anyways, on with the rest of business.
I have been blinded recently by camp and my circumstances (crazy as they are) and I've been trying too hard to accomplish things on my own and take care of myself (forgetting who is in control). Basically, I'm realizing I need to turn to God rather than rely on myself (or anyone for that matter). So I'm asking for prayer. Just today I discovered a possible opportunity at Sambica (on Lake Sammamish) for an internship team! A team! That makes me so much more excited than the Staff Assistant position at Qwanoes (sorry, Canada). So I ask for prayer that this might be the opportunity I'm looking for, that I can figure things out for my life (in many areas) and see God's plan for me (but who doesn't want that one?).
For now I need to get to packing and go drop off this Sambica application!
2 comments:
Yay Bruce! I'm so glad that you have come to these realizations- it's so good to have you back! That's awesome that you are learning (even though it seems like it's the hard way) to let God mold you and take you to where he wants you to be. He's got such a great plan all ready for you! (Funny how we all know this is true, but it takes so much for us to actually Believe it!) Welcome home, friend!
You asked for it and you got it!
Prayer is 2 for 1 today. So I'll pray again later. And then tomorrow. And such.
I was just wanting some specific things to pray for today, so in a way, your prayer request is an answer to my prayer request for prayer requests...
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